Archive for October, 2004

St Jude, help me with my Phychem

Ah yes….It’s been a week. IMB was pretty simple. I hope I can score A+. Today’s Phychem was thankfully easy enough for me, hopefully I can pass or perhaps even get an A. I was mugging for it like mad since yesterday. I only regret not studying the other chapters more closely. Ah well now I’ll worry about Inorganic Chemistry, Maths and Microbiology A. Went to North Point with Kumaran and Josephine. Went to eat. Ran into Clement and Shakeilia. Walked around for a while. I’m kind of surprised to know that Josephine is Catholic. Hmm.

Holy Saint Jude, Apostle and Martyr, Great in virtue and rich in miracles, Near kinsman of Jesus Christ, Faithful intercessor of all Who invoke your special patronage in time of need. To you I have recourse from the depths of my heart And humbly beg to whom God has given such great power To come to my assistance. Help me in my present and urgent petition, In return I promise to make your name known And cause you to be invoked. Saint Jude pray for us And all who invoke your aid. Amen.

3 Our Fathers
3 Hail Marys
3 Glory Be to the Father

“You must promise to publish this prayer when your prayer is answered.”

St Jude is the saint for desperate causes.


Inorganic Chemistry, We don’t have any chemistry.
Microbiology, Megadisaster.
Physical Chemistry, Intellectual torture.

How did my practicals go? You say leh? Damn it I should have studied pH buffers….It really came out….Damn it die already…If I’m tyco enough I will just pass, but I see very little chance of it. Shit lah, then microbiology I damn scared ah. My gram staining totally gone. I did it 3 times but still couldn’t figure it out. Then my slide cracked because I didn’t cool it before applying crystal violet. Shit ah…Ah at least my streak plate and spread plate can make it lah. I hope.

Today I went for exam mass in school. NYP’s Legion of Mary organised it. They called the priest from Christ the King, I think. I can’t remember his name. Lol, it seems legion is dying everywhere. They only got 4 members. But then, NYP so big, how many Catholics are there? And out of at least 300 of them how many actually give a damn about religion in school? Not many I’d reckon. But that’s not for us to judge.

Well the people at mass today were a nice bunch of people. Quite friendly. There were a few lecturers there. Ah, a lot of them are from nursing. I will enjoy corresponding with them in future.

My class ah, haiz…Damn sad ah…So much politics.. They are a great bunch, but I think that this warfare is inevitable. It was commented that our class has strong personality. Hence, it is inevitable that there will be personality clashes. An undeniable fact of life, rather sad. Well, I will pray for them. We’ll see what happens.

I’m making the wall inside my heart
I don’t wanna let my emotions get out
It scares me to look at the world
Don’t want to find myself lost in your eyes
I tried to drown my past in grey
I never wanna feel more pain
Ran away from you without saying any words
What I don’t wanna lose is love
Through my eyes
Time goes by like tears
My emotion’s losing the color of life
Kill my heart
Release all my pain
I’m shouting out loud
Insanity takes hold over me

Turning away from the wall
Nothing I can see
The scream deep inside reflecting another person in my heart
He calls me from within”All existence you see before youmust be wiped out:
Dream, Reality, Memories, and Yourself”

Art of Life by X Japan

Altar Serving for Dummies

Altar Serving for Dummies

I went for CL in the morning, then came home to study. I hope I know my stoichiometry well enough. It’s the only thing I can bank on now (Aq Solutions to a very small extent). Went for camp meeting at Toa Payoh with Clare and Kellina. Didn’t really get much work done. We still haven’t settled the station games and the night activity. Anyway, went for rosary crusade and mass at Risen Christ after that. They last minute ask me to serve mass. So I went to the sacristy, found the servers there. I put on a cassock, and then there was this cloak to put over. Damn cool. A gold background with a cross in the middle. I was the acolyte for the procession, along with some kid. Well it was fun while it lasted, although with a little bit of hiccup.

Tomorrow exam ah wah lao, I hope I don’t die. Good luck to those people who are taking O level, and any poly people who are taking their exams. Sheesh, nobody remembers us Poly people. “Oh, poly very easy one, no need to study one..” Ok lor…

For those who need it, the exam prayers can be found below.

Art of Life

Hmm. Exams. Damn it I should have started studying way back…Now I’m having a lot of problems… 1) I can’t finish studying the stuff I plan to study for the day, so I have to drag it to the next day. 2) When I finally start doing it, I realise that I don’t understand shit. Damn Japanese is on Tuesday and I still can’t write (or read for that matter) Katakana. Stupid roleplay for Japanese. I don’t even understand what I’m supposed to say. Wakarimasen. That means don’t understand in Japanese.

Losing faith in the people around me. Once you know them quite well, you’ll see their bad side easily. No, nobody is perfect, I declare that I am not perfect, so don’t you dare think that I’m a hypocrite. I may not the best fellow around, but I’m not the worst.

Today was supposed to have legion meeting at 9am. Damn benedict called me to report sick and to cancel meeting. Yeah, and I just finished dressing up, brushing my teeth, and gelling my hair. I changed back into my sleep clothes with the gel still in my hair and went back to sleep. He called at around 8.30am. I slept at 2 am that day, so yeah. Alarm rang at 10, but I went back to sleep. Woke up at 2pm. I have to stop sleeping in. It’s screwing up my study plans. Did aqueous solutions and reactions today. I don’t know shit about it.

That day I was feeling like crap. Tuesday or Wednesday I think. I was waken up by my father railing at my brother. “Going gallivanting again?!” Yeah whatever. Then there was drilling sounds from some idiot’s house. Double whatever. I went back to sleep.

I’ll go sleep soon. Tomorrow got CL. God, help me…

Desert Rose, Why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I’ll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand..

The winds of time,
You knock me to the ground
I’m dying of thirst, I wanna run away.
I don’t know how to set me free to live,
My mind cries out feeling pain.

I’ve been roaming to find myself,
How long have I been feeling endless hurt.
Falling down, rain flows into my heart,
In the pain I’m waiting for you.
Can’t go back, No place to go back to,
Life is lost, Flowers fall.
If it’s all dreams,
Now wake me up.
If it’s all real,
Just kill me….

“Art of Life” by X-Japan
It’s thirty minutes long, so maybe you’ll see me post another part of the song next time.

Examination Prayers

+In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Prayer before Study or Instructions

Incomprehensible Creator, the true Fountain of light and only Author of all knowledge: deign, we beseech Thee, to enlighten our understanding, and to remove from us all darkness of sin and ignorance. Thou, who makest eloquent the tongues of those who lack utterance, direct our tongues, and pour on our lips the grace of thy blessing. Give us a diligent and obedient spirit, quickness of apprehension, capacity of retaining, and the powerful assistance of Thy holy grace; that what we hear or learn we may apply to Thy honor and the eternal salvation of our own souls. Amen.

Prayer for Students

Under thy patronage, dear Mother, and calling on the mystery of thine Immaculate Conception, I desire to pursue my studies and my literary labors: I hereby solemnly declare that I am giving myself to these studies chiefly to the following end: that I may the better contribute to the glory of God and to the promotion of thy veneration among men. I pray thee, therefore, most loving Mother, who art the Seat of Wisdom, to bless my labors in thy loving-kindness. Moreover I promise with true affection and a willing spirit, as it is right that I should do, to ascribe all the good that shall come to me therefrom, wholly to thine intercession for me in God’s holy presence. Amen.

(An indulgence of 300 days once a day.)

+In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, Amen.


So, I haven’t blogged for a long time. This week I was really listless. Not inspired at all. Didn’t bother to study. Today I was inspired. I realised that, ‘Shit, I should have started on Monday.’ Now I’m probably not going to finish studying in time. Even if I do, my brain would rot. So I decided to study Japanese, do E-learning for Commskills, and do my Inorganic Chemistry practical report. I’m so full of zest and energy. How inspired I feel!

Not quite.

I haven’t touched Japanese at all, still have to read the Commskills book and I’ve only typed my name in the report. Damn it, I shouldn’t have installed the bloody Service Pack 2. Argh, this procastination is a very bad habit. Did you know that I was supposed to plan my studying timetable last week? Not today? I have plenty of bad habits. It’s damn hard to get rid of them. It’s not going to be easy, but I’ve got to try somehow.

Went to Maris Stella yesterday morning for legion meeting. It was only Benedict and I. Nobody comes for meeting anymore. But what’s new? Our attendance has always been that bad. You should have seen the time I had meeting with Brother Paul and nobody else. Better still, the time I had meeting with 2 old ladies from St Steven’s and nobody else. During that meeting I was basically talking to myself. ‘Cept for the sharing part. Had brunch with Benedict at Joo Seng kopitiam. Went back to NYP for music theory. Then went to novena for 4pm service. Walked around after that, then went home.

I’m out of here.

Friday’s Feast

What sound, other than the normal ringing, would you like your telephone to make?
Answer: Mobile phone or house phone? In both cases, no sound. Telephones are annoying.

Describe your usual disposition in meteorological terms (partly cloudy, sunny, stormy, etc.).
Answer: Downburst- a vertical or nearly vertical downward burst of strong winds at ground level, usually associated with a thunderstorm.

What specific subject do you feel you know better than any other subjects?
Answer: History. Even though I don’t study that anymore.

Main Course Imagine you were given the ability to remember everything you read for one entire day. What books/magazines/newspapers would you choose to read?
Answer: Every textbook that is related to my course of study, maths and chemistry especially. And if I have some leftover time, maybe some books on church doctrine, spirituality or apologetics.

If a popular candy maker contacted you to create their next candy bar, what would it be like?
Answer: It’ll be made of chocolate, have a slight hint of orange, soft to eat, not too sticky.

I scraped through my maths common test with a D. I think I will fail the quiz on Thursday. It wasn’t supposed to be hard but…haiz… Ah well, I’ll just practise more. Yes, easier said than done.

I ought to go sleep instead of mucking around at this hour.

School of Mobile Suit Warfare is playing “Simply Red – Holding back the years”
Brought to you by iTunes.

I’ll keep holding on, I’ll keep holding on, I’ll keep holding on, I’ll keep holding on, So tight.


Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us

Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us

Our Lady of Mount Carmel, pray for us

Stella Matutina, ora pro nobis

Our Lady of Perpetual Succor, pray for us

St Michael the Archangel, pray for us

St Jude, pray for us

St Benedict, pray for us

St Dominic, pray for us

St Anthony, pray for us